I think this happened.... But it feels like a dream when i think about it. Its not though... My 6 year old mind could never dream this up. I dont even know what to call it. Rape? Molestation? It makes me feel sad and my insides tighten when i remember. It was my older male cousin who did it. He had to have been... 14? No doubt he himself was curious about sex. I just wish it wasnt me he used. I was only 6 maybe 7 at the time. He took me upstairs. He was supposed to be babysitting my brothers and i. We played a new game, one where neither of us needed pants. He.. Liked to touch down there and see what fit. His d-ck musta been too big thank god. He also liked putting it in my mouth. I remember it. It was huge to me then. ( i know its graphic but i need to get all of it out, tryin to be gentle) I dont know how many times this happened. I dont know. Its a deep dark secret i'll never speak and it doesnt hurt if I never think about it. Cant blame a 14 year old boy for being curious.