My mother had a surgical procedure called a whipple. This is a major surgery performed mostly for people with pancreatic cancer. In my mother case, she did not have cancer. She had a non cancerous tumor. The recovery was difficult and painfully, Serious depression set in and my mother attempted suicide many many times. A live in caregiver was hired to take care of my mother but that ended up being a terrible mistake. The caregiver took over the house by redecorating, forging checks and using my mother credit cards. I tried everything to get this slime caregiver out of the house including calling the police. The caregiver claimed to be a tenant that was renting a room. In California, tenant/landlord law is only one sided in favor of the tenant and in this case, the caregiver does not need to prove she moved in as a tenant, The burden to prove other is on the person in the landlord position. One day my mother could not take it anymore and again tried to commit suicide by drug overdose. When I found out about her plan, I immediately called 911 and insisted on doing a 51/50. This was the worst mistake I ever made in my entire life. The reason why I say this is because the hospital my mother was sent to did not take care of her basic medical needs and caused a somewhat healthy person to end up with septic shock that eventually killed her. I can not forget the night when the ambulance picked up my mother at her house for the planned suicide. I promised my mother that I will make sure everything will be all right. It wasnt. If I simply did nothing or at least not insisted on doing a 51/50, my mother will still be alive today. I have a tremendous amount of quilt for what I did. I realize my decisions were based on what I thought was the best thing to do but in the end, in an indirect way I commit murder on my own mother. I can NOT live with that. Today is Mothers Day and I am having a very difficult time. My attorney is finalizing the trust hopefully this week. When that is complete, I will end my life at a nearby luxury hotel. I have more then <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>, so this should by easy and guaranteed to work.