For around two weeks now I have gone back into isolation. I'm going through a breakup and it's killing me. I was feeling positive a few days ago but recently I have just felt like crap. I honestly haven't got out of my house for the whole time. I barely get out of bed and I'm going insane. The stupid thing is that I know all the right things to do, yet I just don't do them. I'm not sure if it's my medication or maybe I just have something wrong with me. This isn't the first time I've done this... I have spent nearly a year indoors in the past... But I don't want to waste my life. I'm 33 and I want to find someone who I can love again. I want to get healthy. I want to live. Yet, I can't. By the time I think about doing things my day is gone and I'm thinking "I'll do it tomorrow" and that never happens. I have a Cpn which is a nurse that comes to see me... But I lie to him and tell him I'm Ok. I don't know why... I just do. I have zero motivation. I think if this continues I'm going to be suicidal soon. I can feel it creeping up on me again. I'm emotional and just shit.