So I've been feeling this way a little while now. Like I've reached a dead end and I'm just sitting here doing nothing. I'm doing therapy, I'm taking my meds, I'm getting ECT done...but nothing is really doing anything.
I may even have a reasonable chance to transition and live as a woman like I've always dreamed of. But I still want to die very badly.
I don't have a plan or anything but I just know that that's how I'm going to die. I can't think of a scenario where my depression doesn't end up winning.
Anyways, since I'm trans people see me as a freak and would rather see me dead than happy...
I may even have a reasonable chance to transition and live as a woman like I've always dreamed of. But I still want to die very badly.
I don't have a plan or anything but I just know that that's how I'm going to die. I can't think of a scenario where my depression doesn't end up winning.
Anyways, since I'm trans people see me as a freak and would rather see me dead than happy...