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I never thought it could happen. I never thought I could fall in love. Ive spent the bulk of my life avoiding love. Half a lifetime of isolation, seclusion, and reflection. Pondering the world from a distance, too scared too take part in it. I was both, trapped, and comforted by the world i created, despising it one second, hailing its merits the next.
I should have known, I should have been more cautious. I now know why I spent so much time creating a world inside a world. The answer is simple.
Stepping outside into the merky blackness of real life is dangerous and heart breaking. When I think of losing her...im physically sick, I feel like somebody has just reached into my stomach and removed something that should never be removed. I feel emotion I never thought i was I capable of. Years of hardening myself to the real world, allowed me to ignore emotion, oblivious to it.
Id like to write a little poem about how I feel. Im not very good with poems so bare with me.
I Know Ive Lost Her
A day just like any other,
A yawn, and a silent mutter,
Tired, teary, and a heart a flutter.
An awaken spirit
A ceaseless putter
I greeted this day reborn
A blessed soul, no longer forlorn
Free, alive, and no longer torn
I sense your kiss
I no longer mourn
Bring forth the silent stranger
Peerless, and crucible of danger
A demon, a harpie, a halfling changer
Decadent shadows
A life altering exchanger
The ray of hope so bright
Now abandoned and taken flight
A tired crutch, a hopeless plight
Taken my spirit
Taken my life
I should have known, I should have been more cautious. I now know why I spent so much time creating a world inside a world. The answer is simple.
Stepping outside into the merky blackness of real life is dangerous and heart breaking. When I think of losing her...im physically sick, I feel like somebody has just reached into my stomach and removed something that should never be removed. I feel emotion I never thought i was I capable of. Years of hardening myself to the real world, allowed me to ignore emotion, oblivious to it.
Id like to write a little poem about how I feel. Im not very good with poems so bare with me.
I Know Ive Lost Her
A day just like any other,
A yawn, and a silent mutter,
Tired, teary, and a heart a flutter.
An awaken spirit
A ceaseless putter
I greeted this day reborn
A blessed soul, no longer forlorn
Free, alive, and no longer torn
I sense your kiss
I no longer mourn
Bring forth the silent stranger
Peerless, and crucible of danger
A demon, a harpie, a halfling changer
Decadent shadows
A life altering exchanger
The ray of hope so bright
Now abandoned and taken flight
A tired crutch, a hopeless plight
Taken my spirit
Taken my life