Thid nurse, Carol, is hurting me once again since I'm worried about the upcoming trial in 2011. The trial is only one day but still...it worries me as I think the proescution will take her side instead of mine. I'm suciidial again as usual and have made an attempt but this time I hope it works. Everyone will be happy once I'm gone. No more grief, no more lgeal maters, etc. I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused and I hope I can be forgiven.