that I am sure my thoughts of an exit tonight will not come to fruition, but it doesn't stop. There is someone that depends on me to be able to work and make money and I love her, it is just, literally, everything else that is bad right now, I see a psychiatrist and am medicated for anxiety and depression, but I feel like I have no one to talk to, candidly, about my feelings. If i was to say I am thinking about killing myself to anyone I would get back a "you're just saying that to get attention" or "go ahead and do it, if you were going to you would have by now" or "just take your pills you will be fine". I need to be heard! I don't get excited about anything anymore, I am tired of being in pain (mostly emotional) I am tired of having to fight to get up in the morning, I am tired of having to drag through my day because I couldn't get to sleep. I am just tired.