I've been feeling depression and anxiety for an incredibly long time now. Getting laid off and mom and dad trying to kick me out of the house despite the lack of a job market here has made it worse. Lately, I've suddenly started getting the urge to cause harm to myself...I usually take care of it easily by talking to other about it and taking my mind off it. Well...not too long ago...and yes, I know this sounds really stupid...I just leaped out of bed and started attacking myself. Punching, clawing, slapping, trying to choke myself...and I don't really expect the hits coming. It's like I'm in a fight with myself. It's very odd, I know...I've never had this happen. Perhaps it is my final battle?