I know why you're feeling this way....

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by ConfusedOne, Jan 1, 2010.

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  1. ConfusedOne

    ConfusedOne New Member

    I feel the same. It's because none of this is real. We can feel it. We know this reality that is before us is completely false. It's all a hologram. This computer, it's not real. If it's not real, then why is it here? Well, think about this. Is the text on your screen real? Nope. Does it actually exist? Nope. It only exists as an interpretation of electronic impulses sent to the computer screen. So why does this computer in front of me exist? It's it just the result of interpretations of electric impulses to the brain?

    I'm sure you've all seen the Matrix. The fact of the matter is we ARE living in the matrix. Is it controlled by machines made of metal in a world where the sun has been destroyed? Most likely not, that was Hollywood. But we are slaves to the machines, religion, finance, education, corporatism, communism, socialism etc. etc. etc. We are slaves to this machine and we are being manipulated to think a certain way, act a certain way, live a certain way and so on and so forth.

    This is why we all feel the way we do. We don't want to be slaves. We can sense we are prisoners.

    What is reality? Is it not just the result of impulses sent to the brain? Just look at some of the early MK Ultra experiments. They would send electronic impulses to the brain and create certain feelings, memories and even visions in people. It's not difficult, when you understand. We can write computer software and manipulate our computer can't we? So why can't people who understand the very essence of reality, write computer programs for your human computer? They can. And they do.

    So. We understand we are slaves. It doesn't matter if the slavery is comfortable, if it's miserable, if it's ok. The fact is we know we are slaves and we want to WAKE UP!

    That is where I am. I'm not terribly depressed as in "oh, my life is terrible". No. Quite the contrary. I've come to the realization that this life, or this reality, is all an illusion and I don't want to be part of it. After all, what happens when we die? We can't take our big bank account, or wife and kids, or big house, or nice car, etc. etc. with us. Why? Because it's like a movie and once the movie is over we simply exit the theater. So really, what is the point?

    That is the 23.7 trillion dollar question now isn't it? My guess would be spiritual enlightenment. We must experience this to gain enlightenment for our soul to move on to the next plane. But what if you have reached that enlightenment? What if the enlightenment is to simply realize, that this ISN'T REAL!

    I know there are most likely Doctors that monitor this board. They'll say "you are clinically depressed, suicidal and you need medication". Do you know what that medication does? Do you know what prozac and other things are made of?? They are FLUORIDE BOMBS! Do you know what Fluoride does to you? No. It doesn't make your teeth white. It calcifies your pineal gland, the seat of the soul. It makes you docile. The Nazis were the first ones to take that technology (or toxicology rather) to the mainstream. And guess what, the government is putting it in our tap water! YES! The government has instructed the aluminum industry to dump it's fluoride bi-products into OUR DRINKING WATER! Ever wonder why they want you to drink 8 glasses of water? HA! Look it up!

    Anyway, I'm veering off subject. Clinical psychiatrists would try to make my mind set conform to the tiny box reality through the use of pacifying drugs. But I know better. The truth is out there. This reality... COMPLETELY HOLOGRAPHIC AND MEANINGLESS.

    Now comes the biggest question. What do we do with that knowledge. Do we harness the power and manipulate this reality for our benefit? If so, HOW? HOW? HOW? Or do we just say "I don't want to watch this movie anymore" and walk out of the theater?

    What to do, what to do, what to do.........
  2. Bambi

    Bambi Well-Known Member

    Are you feeling suicidal or are you just wanting to voice your thoughts/opinions on reality? If it is the latter then maybe you will get the replies you wish if you post in another forum besides this one.
    If you are suicidal we are here for you if you but tell us how we can help and what has gotten you feeling so badly.
  3. betteroffunknown

    betteroffunknown Well-Known Member

    welcome to sf here. i must say your perspective is quite interesting. i'm not sure that i agree with it, but it's what you believe and that makes it important. like bambi if you are feeling suicidal we do hope you will share those feelings here, and if you're not that's ok too. we're just glad to have you here. please take care and we'll see ya around
  4. optimistic

    optimistic Member

    hi ConfusedOne,
    I appreciate your thoughts about life. But the real problem is that all these thoughts are from beliefs that we have accumulated till date. We hear all kind of different opinions and "believe" one of them to be true. For e.g:

    "We can't take our big bank account, or wife and kids, or big house, or nice car, etc. etc. with us."

    Do we know?? May be there is life after death or when we a reborn all the previous "karma" counts..

    We actually don't know anything about or after death as it cannot be experienced.

    Buddha said "Come and See" not "Come and Believe"

    Have you solved this puzzle??
    So, wait, don't leave the theater with climax still to come!!:smile:
  5. ConfusedOne

    ConfusedOne New Member

    Excellent! Thank you for giving me something to meditate on. At least someone understands where I am. :)
  6. kimba

    kimba New Member


    I have seen you post before in the Paxil (maybe Prozac) drug interaction forum re. flouride. If you say the pineal gland is the seat of the soul, you must believe we have a "soul".
    You obviously have tried medication, sounds like it worked as well for you as it did for me.
    Look up depressive realism, this is what we're "suffering" from. The knowledge that we are nothing, there is nothing, why go on. Why do these obsessive suicidal thoughts plague us and not everyone? Does no one give thought to the basic meaning of life, or don't they care?
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