But this doesn't make any sense. When I think about it, I have the best life of anyone I know. When I think about it, I have the worst life of anyone I know. Therefore, I must be legitimately delirious. I'm done with drugs, never did anything hard but I used to get high on something almost every day for the past three weeks. Nothing is better than eating 120mg oxycodone, even though I only did it once and will never again :sad: At least I felt happy for one time in my life. no plan to kill myself, but every smiley on the side of this window makes me want to kill myself. Who cares about a stupid giraffe? I just woke up after two to three days of sleeping in a complete panic. I think I'm going to drive a nail into my neck and wake up in the hospital so I can at least get some IV morphine and nod off. My life has been branded with a :sad: for the majority of my intelligent years. The best type of suicide would be to keep eating more and more roxis until you died. ^^That was probably the dumbest post you've ever seen, but I'm tired of being depressed and suicidal. and i dont really like opiates all that much, but at least I extracted one night of happiness.