This is probably so strange that I doubt anyone here can even relate. Just wanted to get a load off my chest, as they say. I am a freak of the strangest kind. I don't see how anyone can even help me or even relate to me. I've read other posts here, and other people are going through much worse situations than I am. I don't think my situation hurts any less, though. Every day of my life is spent in constant pain. The pain of being absolutely lonely. I have no friends. No one that likes me. No one that loves me. I have no idea what it feels like to have someone that actually wants to be around me. I am a 25 year old guy without a friend in the world. I have never been in a romantic relationship. I am so lonely that it hurts every single day. I ache for one good friend. I have never had a close friend. I have no one that truly and honestly wants to listen to me. I am starved for human affection and companionship. It feels like something similar to being extremely hungry but never having anything to eat, if that makes any sense. Every night, around this time, I cry. I am a man that cries every day. I cry because I am so lonely. I don't know how to make friends. I am extremely shy and avoidant. I can't talk to people. I just want the hurt to go away. I don't want to feel anything anymore. I wish I didn't need human affection, but I do. I don't know what to do. It is overwhelming, eating from inside. I just feel hollow. I think that dying is the only way to make this end. I don't know why I have to suffer like this. I don't know what I've done to deserve this.