I'm really not that bad off. I could have a few more friends, but I'm not totally alone. I have opportunities and hobbies at my disposal to make myself feel better. I have a therapist who really is caring, though lately I'm questioning if she really knows what I need. But I have resources for help. Yet still, I keep coming back to this point where I feel like a useless member of society, a piece of crap and -- just down for no apparent reason. I might have been documented with slight depression at some point, but nothing major or severe -- I can function well enough to be on my own. There are things I think I want, but I just can't seem to get in touch with them in my mind. Is there something I'm really missing beyond my grasp of understanding, or do I just need a huge kick in the butt?