I won't go into details about how this happened but basically I bought something risky and as a result lost at least 1.5K. I know its my own fault but honestly that just makes the feeling worse. I really have been considering killing myself after this. I really don't know if I have anything going for me in my life. The only skill I feel like I have is coding/technology. Anyways, I am looking for advice on how to cope with this. Suicide seems like the only option for me at this point.