I lost my best friend

[wozudichter]

Hi,
This is my first time posting here. I lost my childhood best friend six years ago to a car accident. We were best friends since fifth grade, and he died my senior year. He was a good person, and I miss him terribly. I remember how pale he looked in his coffin, and how hard his skin felt when I went down to kiss him. I remember how heavy his coffin was, and I was so small then. fuck.
I went away to college and had a substance abuse problem. My roommate at school passed away from a heroin overdose. I dropped out of school. It's been a long time now, and the pain left for a couple years. However, now, I can't help but think of my friends, and how joyless my new relationships are in comparison. I miss my friend. I often spend my days imaging what our lives would have been like.
It's just so hard, and I feel so lonely right now.

 

[Samsara]

I feel for you. God, I'm so sorry. I want you to be happy. I'm glad my brother was cremated so I wouldn't have to see his dead face. Not that he had a face, he used a big fucking gun.

 

[ZombiePringle]

I had a friend die in high school from a car accident. I wasn't too close to him but it still hurt deeply. The last time I had seen him I bought the demo CD of his band from him. I remember after the accident all I could do is listen to that CD over and over again.

 

[Shadowlands]

Welcome to the forum! Sorry to hear about your friend. He lives in you now. Remember the good in that relationship and bring it to life in your new ones. :hug:

 

[wozudichter]

Thanks guys. Does anyone get pain in their left ring finger when you're sad?

 

[Petal]

Im sorry!

Im here if you need to talk xx

 

[Tavil]

I'm so sorry.. I lost my best friend Vanessa to cancer 2 years ago.
It never gets any easier.

 

[healing07]

I understand your pain because I Just lost my best friend recently. Now I feel like I lost my everything. I am very sad and I know what going on you. I just say take care. God bless you.