I'm wish there were words to say to ease your pain. Unfortunately I know 1st hand that there are no such words. Someone can say time heals all wounds, well it doesn't it just numbs them a bit. Will it get easier to maintain a normal life, yes but you will never forget this. Just try as best as possible to celebrate her life and the time you had with your daughter, no matter how short it sadly was. I would like to speak with you further, maybe via messanger. I might be able to offer some words of wisdom from a fellow Suicide Survivor. I want to leave you with this though.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm Free ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Don't grieve for me for now I'm free
I'm following the path God laid for me.
I took his hand when I heard him call
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day
To laugh, to love, to work or play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way
I found that peace at close of day.
If my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh a kiss,
Ah, yes, these things I too will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life's been full, I've savored much,
Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief
Don't lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your hearts and share with me
God wanted me know: He set me free.
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This was written for when my Brother in Law fell to Suicide. I'm not a extremely religious person, but I have to believe that I will see him once again, someday. I find comfort in reading this sometimes I guess, because sure each time I read it and even 8 years later I cry. That's ok though because "Crying is the Souls Soap".
Please PM if you would like to talk further. There is more I would like to say, however it's quite late and I must go to bed now. Good night and my thoughts are with you even though I don't know you I know, but I'm glad you found a place you are able to come to for potential support. When my brother in law died I just one day after his death went online talking to people. I guess it was easier telling strangers than my friends and I was told I was making it all up and I cried and typed "God I wish that were true". So anyways, I hope you find something for you here to help you through this what seems and almost is impossible situation that you were left to face.
~ Pam