I'm a 22 year old white male 5'9 114lbs. no job,no friends, living with mom. I feel so foggy, dumb, sad, worthless, hopeless. I never feel good anymore...i hate me, i despise seeing myself in the mirror. I am tormented by the thought of living any longer like this. It scares me to think im going to be like this for the rest of my life. i cant talk to people right, i always feel like an air head, like im not aware of my surroundings, i have no personality.nothing ever seems to be good enough anymore, everything is dull. ive lost all the vibrancy i once had, i feel ruined. i dont think ill ever be back to normal again, so therefore i want to die.