Does anyone else here love being alone? But at the same time, they are lonely? I can't quite explain the feeling I am going through. I've had some terrible experiences with people in the past and it has caused me a lot of heartache. So, I had periods where I withdrew and then went back into society. However now, I seemed to have withdrew myself nearly completely, but feel so lonely. I have two friends in my life I hardly see, as I've moved so far away from them. I live alone in my house. I order everything online, from groceries to entertainment. I have a car, but I hardly ever drive. My days mostly consist of me waking up, exercising, check mail, browsing the internet, reading, cooking, doing hobbies or taking a nap. I have no problem taking care of myself or my house. Yet, I still feel a gaping hole in my life. It's like I'm missing any real and true connections, but paradoxically, I love my own company and feel free when I'm alone. So, I'm basically a recluse that doesn't feel any connection with anybody.I HATE going out and depending on my mood, even fear it. Now, I appreciate all my family, friends and support I get and I respect them a lot.... however I just don't feel ANY emotional connection with them at all. I've tried to get into society, but I found it too awkward to function in..... I FEEL like I don't get along with most people and they aren't worth my time. Keep in mind this is how I FEEL not what I THINK, I try to override my emotions with giving people a fair shot and trying to withhold my judgements. However, I find it is always them judging me unfairly and shallowly, which causes me to withdraw and cut connections. I know I should also be introspecting and seeing what I could do to help and improve myself, I do this a lot (and have all the time in the world to do it.) And I've just come to the conclusion that I don't fit into society at all and feel like an outcast, at the same time I feel like people aren't giving me a fair chance or they're shallow minded. (The keyword is "feel".) On the contrary, I want to feel like I belong and have at least one close connection with somebody. Can anyone that was or is in a similar situation please give me some guidance and advice?