I still love my ex..like really love him. I posted a while ago about how he was with my best mate. I hear about them being together and going places and opn facebook...and it just breaks my heart. they have opened my eyes to what i was doing wrong! I just wish I could have him back..despite how much he hurt me. I would be a much better gf! Its so hard...he saw a thread on here of mine and text me as soon as he saw it...really worried and caring. when i told him more he got really angry and defensive of me..like he did when we were going out! He is giving me a lift to church tomorrow...just as friends, but he said not to be surprised if he hugged me! I really don't think i will handle that. it will be hard enough seeing him for the first time since all the stuff with my best mate! I asked him why he would hug me and he said cos of what u posted...and other stuff! now he wont explain what other stuff :s My exams will be over soon so if we were together i would be able to spend loads of time with him and be much less stressed! I love him so much its killing me. Do you think im reading too much into the little things or is he sending mixed messages? any advice as to what I can do? He is the first boy I have ever loved..!