I can't understand it. I try so hard to tell myself it isn't good for me but I never seem to want to stop. This is the weird thing. I was at my mates and we were smoking it and I started to feel really ill. Hot, dizzy and my heart started to beat really quick and even though I told my mate I was giving up I just couldn't do it. How abnormal is that? If something makes you ill you quit but not me. I just couldn't stop. I still can't. I am fed up with feeling like this but if I won't stop then there is nothing else to do. I swear I am not making this up. Noone understands how I feel. My Dad has begged me to stop and now my Mum wants me to but I don't know how to stop. I love it so much. I know it sometimes makes me ill. I also know I hate this feeling but I still won't quit. I know marijuana is making me paranoid but I won't stop. My family can't put up with me without it. They say I am unbearable. I know it's true. I snap at people, feel sick, wake up in hot sweats and just crave it so badly. I have sold most my games to get it. I need it. Can someone tell me how long I am going to feel this way. I thought it was a phase but I am not so sure. Someone help.