**I Love You And Always Will**

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Marshmallow, Dec 9, 2006.

  1. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    So ermmmmm....i've been having a rough time lately, well i think i can handle it but others don't seem to think so. My heads been kinda other the place, dealing with going to get an 'assessment' stuggling with stopping with self harm and then college.

    Had a meeting with my mum and step dad with 2 of my teachers.
    Kinda got pissed at one of them, the teacher i trusted and have told about my self harm, the one who wanted to call me mum and tell herk, well duting the meeting she said 'we just want you to be safe and to stop hurting yourself' i just knew what she was trying to do, she knows full well that my mum doesn't know about the self harming. I'm an adult if i wanted to tell them i would, why try force me to do it!? I'm not going to! don't you understand that? My mums just started having counselling sessions herself! how can i turn around and sat i've been harming myself for months under her roof and she had no clue! you dont know my mum, it would kill her, i know it would, so please just drop that subject!

    So i've been sitting here for the past few hours feeling pretty down, having the urge again (seems to be a constant thing in my life right now) been asleep most of the day trying to block it out and becase im so damn tired.

    So i started writting down something and it came out as this.....

    I love you and always will​

    Every day I feel hurt and pain
    Feeling that over and over again
    Loving you because you’re so true
    But hurting because I can’t be with you

    Knowing your hurting so bad
    Knowing I can’t be there makes me so sad
    All I want to do is reach out my hand
    Help you rebuild and survive strand by strand

    Lay out my hands and cradle you in my palms
    Let you fall asleep while lying in my arms
    Making you feel like nothing can defeat you
    The love I feel for you is so true

    Would put myself thru intense pain
    In order to make you feel happy again
    Pull out my heart bit by bit
    You need it and I can live without it

    You mean the world to me
    You can be whatever you wish to be
    I wish you to survive this day
    And I hope that you never again feel this way

    You make everything in my world stand still
    I love you and always will
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  2. DarnTired

    DarnTired Antiquitie's Friend

    You're beautiful.
  3. LetItGo

    LetItGo Staff Alumni

    Agreed. and so damn talented with poetry...serious, id be collecting all these poems for a future book deal ;)
  4. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    :hug: Vik

    Stay strong and hang in there hun :) :hug:
  5. thedeafmusician

    thedeafmusician Staff Alumni


  6. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    :hug: viks :hug: