When you have no friends, no one that loves or cares for you, you basically don't matter or exist, even if you love yourself it is not enough in this world, if it were enough then what would the point of family, friends, and significant others be? Humans are meant to be loved and the ones who aren't, who have no one...are doomed, like me... I am doomed. Old friends are now estranged, ex gf doesn't know or care if you exist anymore, they were the ones to promise you they would always be there for you, that is bullshit, no partner will ever be there for you forever, I don't care who it is, your sweety, your wife, whatever. Love is just a fuckin word, no one will ever love you more than they love themselves, it is only natural. Friends are fake, the internet is fake, significant others are fake, the only thing that is real is the FAKENESS, the acting. To strive in this world you must be fake, you must kiss ass, you must be selfish, you must kick em when they're up kick em when they're down. This is not at all from my personal perspective on life but from the consistencies that I constantly see from people, it is disgusting.