I love you so much, I can't even begin to describe how much. I love you, but to be perfectly honest, it scares me. It scares me to death. What if the same will happen as before? What if I end up hurting you, as I end up hurting everyone? It hurts so much not to be able to be there with you, not to be able to hold you in my arms, to kiss you. It hurts. But I love you so much, I will try everything within my powers to make you happy, because you're the most wonderful person on earth and you deserve happiness. I just can't help to sometimes feel like you can't be happy with me, that you deserve somebody better then me, somebody who's got more to offer. A strong guy, as well physically as emotionally. Not me. You deserve so much better.