After over a decade of suffering and searching, finally after having my Zyprexa bumped to 10mg, I have finally found some relief. I feel different, life feels different, the world feels different. All in a positive way. I made it, it has felt like such a long and horrendous journey but I made it. I have finally found the right treatment for me, after years of either being too scared of meds or taking the wrong meds. There have been so many times I doubted I would ever get to this point. Things are not perfect, my life still needs a lot of work, but I can do it. I can see now that I can do it. Please hang in there, everyone! Light at the end of the tunnel is confirmed, I can vouch for it. Meds I tried that didn't work or made me worse: - Zoloft - Lexapro - Xanax - Effexor Things that happened while not on any meds: - Homelessness - Loss of all property - Loss of relationships - Loss of jobs - Health problems - Substance abuse - Car wreck - Loss of loved one And more. Approximately 13 years of wrong meds, no meds, crisis after crisis. All I am trying to say is that you can do this. Please believe it. I know the feeling of holding on for dear life inside my own mind. I'm not trying to lecture. I just want yall to know it is worth it. Hang in there.