I've been seeing a therapist for a few weeks now and although I was really uncomfortable to start with (he used silence as a tactic to get me to talk more, which I found really awkward). Anyway, he's a counsellor at the university I'm at, and has been there for about 25 years. As it's a music college, it's quite a small community so he knows most of the students.
I think because of this, and because he's been doing it for so long, I assumed he'd have heard similar stories to mine (hating the course, not having any friends, not coping with stress etc)...but in the first session when I told him how bad things were, he just put his head in his hands and didn't say anything for a few minutes, and at the time I just thought maybe he was thinking about what to say.
Then in the session I had on Friday, I told him about some of the more recent suicide attempts, and although I'd mentioned it before, it really seemed to get to him, he kept wiping away tears and he said how sad it made him that I thought it was OK to treat myself like that.
It wasn't noisy crying or anything, but I don't really know how to feel about it because I really like him and don't want to upset him. I don't get upset about it, so I didn't expect him to.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this, and if so did it bother you? How did you deal with it?
I think because of this, and because he's been doing it for so long, I assumed he'd have heard similar stories to mine (hating the course, not having any friends, not coping with stress etc)...but in the first session when I told him how bad things were, he just put his head in his hands and didn't say anything for a few minutes, and at the time I just thought maybe he was thinking about what to say.
Then in the session I had on Friday, I told him about some of the more recent suicide attempts, and although I'd mentioned it before, it really seemed to get to him, he kept wiping away tears and he said how sad it made him that I thought it was OK to treat myself like that.
It wasn't noisy crying or anything, but I don't really know how to feel about it because I really like him and don't want to upset him. I don't get upset about it, so I didn't expect him to.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this, and if so did it bother you? How did you deal with it?