Hi. I am new here. This is the second thread I started, I guess. I am starting to suspect I have some degree of ptsd. I think about the same bad events that happened in the past and worry if similar things will happen in the future. I try my best to avoid any triggers and if i get triggered, i end up in a bad place emotionally. I know i have adhd and depression and residual social phobia but thats all that i am diagnosed with. I had a violent father and also was bullied by boys in high school. Specially because I wasnt attractive. (high school bullies) I am also a lesbian but it is because i am sexually attracted to women not because of my problems with males. Anyway I have strong disgust for males now and I try my best to act like I dont. I have it when they stare at me in places. Or when they try to hit on me even though I show that I am not interested or when they act bitter and hostile when I dont say ok to them. I hate their sexism homophobia ableism ageism racism. I hate their strong efforts to make people who arent like them second class person. I dont even want to leave the home some days because i dont want to see some males' disgusting faces and stares. I hate talking to males because they say stuff like men are smarter than women or women gossip but men dont or womem should look after a family. I just want to puke on their faces.