I have been feeling out of sorts, not grounded, fragmented. I think all because my Therapist went on long term medical leave. I know how stupid I am being. I really like her and could talk to her. She set me up with someone while she's out and I went once, it just isn't the same. I know I have to give it a chance, and my solution of burning myself was not the right solution, I just felt like I had to. I don't know if I'm going to go to therapy tomorrow. It feels like a lost cause right now. Besides feeling shitty I do everything I'm suppose to. I go to work, do the best job I can, look after my house, do what I can for my kids (one lives with me and the other with his dad). If I didn't talk no one would know how I really feel, so who cares.