I've been cutting myself for 9 years. I'm 22. There have been a few times recently when I've gone quite overboard and ended up with really disgusting scars. It's unfortunate, but that's life. I have a boyfriend who doesn't really how I feel about myself and life. I like to keep that side hidden because it isn't palatable. It would scare him, I think. Anyway, I've been trying to stop cutting myself. I don't know where it came from but a few months ago when I was getting really agitated and angry I couldn't find the particular knife I use. (I'd tried to hide it from myself. I have a shit memory - it worked). Anyway, I just sat down, grabbed a biro and started scribbling all over myself. To be honest, I probably looked like a right idiot. But every bad thing I felt about myself I just wrote over and over again on my body until I calmed down. Has anyone else found themselves doing that?