It's highly possible that my depression will take control over me tonight and make me log off permanently.
I'll be having a stressful night and I am not sure how I will take it. I'm scared, but ready to accept the fact that I might he gone tonight.
Hope you stay safe and reconsider. Hospitalization seems like something that can keep you OK in the meantime if you are feeling like you want to suicide. :hugtackles: If you want to talk about anything, send me a PM.
We're thinking of you and hoping you'll still be with us tomorrow. If you're still here, can you keep us updated? Breaking unhealthy relationships and patterns is always the most painful and difficult step in the recovery process. You will feel more alone than you ever have in your life. But by the sound of it you have wonderful, loving children, as well as a councilor, (possibly friends and other family willing to help?) and us here on SF. Just keep building your support network. I does get better. At the very least it will get easier.