Not that anyone will read this....but atleast i can let it out. I have been reflecting on the several friends who have commited suicide, i miss em very much. I get to thinking of the friend who i met here, who lost his battle. I get to thinking of my friend who od'ed in my arms. I miss them so much. The friend that I met here, he would stay up all hours of the night with me talking/chatting, helping me sort out my mess. Even tho we were seperated by the atlantic ocean, and six hours of time difference, he still managed to help me. And i couldnt help him. Ive read internet news articles of what happened and I have cried. If I had shut up would he still be with us. I miss my friend Marcus who could make me smile in the worst of times. The person who i trusted with anything. The person that died due to my ill decision to use drugs. Sry guys i just need an exit, a vent, I just miss my friends.