Hi.... My girlfriend just... forgot about me. We had been together for 9 months before she left. But we were still "together". We got to see each other about every 2 months, but recently we havent been getting along. Well just 2 days before my birthday we spent a night together, then she said she had to go home and i dropped her off. She said she would call in 30 minutes... so i waited, and waited, and waited... then i ran out of stuff to do and figureing she was just caught up in something got a hotel room as i was 400 miles from where i live. But the call never came, my birthday came and went, i saw her on MSN a few times but she ignored me and signed off... we both knew things were shakey, but she could have said goodbye. Its been about 10 days now.... Im so heartbroken. I dont think i could handle it.. Execpt Im bipolar and take lithium. A side effect of the lithium some people get is called "emotional flattening". Which means I know im happy, but i cant feel it. Or in this case, I know im miserable, but i cant FULLY feel it. I sit around doing nothing ALL DAY, barely eat, ect... everything one would expect... but i cant cry... i wish i could. For everything to make sense, Id have to tell every aspect of our relationship... So many twists and turns... Ive done terrible things to her... She did pretty awful things to me. But just disappearing, its so mean.... I dont think im a danger to myself, because im just so BLAH... But I think about it all the time.... I miss her so much.