I miss what I had

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Whosaid_Octopus, Jan 2, 2014.

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  1. The thoughts started 5 years ago when my mother died, I watched her take her last breath and leave this world. A year later my girlfriend of 3 years tells me she doesn't love me anymore and a month after she had sex with one of my friends and rubbed it in my face, I went through a drug addiction, at 17 taking 50-100mg of Methadone a day for 2 months straight. I got back on the right track, got over her, fell in love again with the most beautiful girl in the world, I was happy again, and then I lost once more, struggling to hold onto what little love she had for me left as she told me about her nights at the bar and the men she's made out with. She avoids me, says the things I want her to say when she's drunk, but when she's not I'm scolded for still feeling for her. I told her I didn't like the fact that she pretends I don't exist and has only seen me 3 times in the last 6 months. After hearing this she tells me to go fuck myself and have a happy New Year and that her New Years kiss is going to be the one person I hate. I don't want to be here anymore, I can't keep doing this, there's something wrong with me, I don't know how to be happy on my own and I only want this beautiful angel who has left my life completely, like every female has prior.
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Im sorry hun how cruel she is You do not need that type of person hun you need someone who will love YOU ok and only you You may have to try meeting new people outside your old ways Try taking a course or go somewhere new and meet a new type of girl ok. It is hard when a relationship break up but you learn from it ok you take what has been and you learn and your try again.
     
  3. It's hard for me to meet new people, I sleep on my friends floor because I have no home, I don't have anything going for me, and i have a problem with getting too attached to people even if I've only talked to them for a day
     
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I am sorry you are struggling so It is hard to keep a relationship going if one is struggling themselves Is there no community outreach programs to help you like welfare I am glad your friend lets you stay there though at least you have someone that cares
     
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