I Must Have

Discussion in 'Rape and Abuse' started by Aimee_in_Wonderland, Aug 16, 2009.

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  1. Aimee_in_Wonderland

    Aimee_in_Wonderland Well-Known Member

    Done something for him to change how he was with me.
    how can you go from someome who cared so much
    that took me out for ice cream trips to the park the seaside
    constantly brought me sweets toys, honestly anything i wanted
    He made me feel special.
    he used to say we was friends as well as family.
    so what did i do wrong for him to change?
    From being friendly loving and caring

    to violent hurtful and hateful
    I did something wrong somewhere
    to make him turn on me
    i was no longer his special little girl.
    no more trips to the park seaside
    no more sweets ice cream or toys
    The only time we ever went out together was to the woods
    and then i knew exactly what was going to happen.

    i made him hate me
    i can even remeber the look on his face
    and how he told me if i didnt let him
    he wouldnt see me anymore,
    and id be lonely
    and that it was our secrete
    and boys do that to girls they like.

    and he was right
    i am lonely
    because no-one will ever understand
  2. Rose24

    Rose24 Chat & Forum Buddy

    I don’t really know what to say other than that I hope you are well and that I am here if you ever need to speak to anyone. :hug: You are not alone.

    Take care and be safe,

  3. Aimee_in_Wonderland

    Aimee_in_Wonderland Well-Known Member

    i am alone,
    because even when i tell it backfires
    like all the years before,
    i have to pretend
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I understand i told as well and it was i who got blamed
    your not alone please understand
    he was the monster the beast
    i wish there was a way to take away your pain
    but just know nothing you did nothing was your fault
    and you told as idid we did what was right
    we stopped the abuse because we are fighters
    i understand the loneliness
    but you are not alone
    you can come here we are listening
    please stay strong
  5. mike25

    mike25 Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry to read a snapshot of the extreme pain and anguish you've obviously experienced. My heart goes out to you. There are people on the forum who can associate, and sometimes just knowing someone understands can bring a tremendous sense of relief. All the best :hug:
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