That's what it comes down to. My wife and I did a Chapter 13 bankruptcy back last fall. For those of you unfamiliar, that is the one, that reorganizes the debt and you make a monthly payment to the courts. Well those payments fell on me. And I couldnt make my January and Februrary payments. My car payment was incorporated into the Chapter 13 plan. On April 9th, Chase, the company I was financed thru, is going to ask for relief from the judge and will take my car, unless I can come up with 2 grand my the 9th. Which I can't. That's it. Here's the repercussions. No car = No work No money No health/dental insurance for my family. Daughter wont be able to get her epilespy meds Daughter wont be able to get her teeth fixed. We will loose our tv and phone service, both of which we are under contract for, and then they will come after us. I will have to return my drum rental. The church band gig is over.This Sunday will be my last performance. The only option I have left, is my life insurance thru my work. So I have to off myself, before it's too late. At least then there will be some money left over after my funeral and the kids and wire can get social security monies. So that is it. I have thought this thru clearly and there is no other way. Now I just have to settle on a method. I did have a method available to me last night, but I took it to the police. That one (and here's a hint) would have been "sure fire." It was nice knowing you people and I will try and help for whatever days I have left. I figure I have a week left from today.