I am overwhelmed by all the bill collectors calling, the phone rings constantly. I cannot find level ground, I pay a bill and it goes up more, it never gets low.I was always a giving person, and in the end, i gave more than i could afford and now i feel my life falling down into a hole. i work 50 hours a week and can't find an out. I really need a hug from someone who understands depression and anxiety. My life in a nutshell is useless. I've suffered from depression most of my life, not only because of the bills but because I can't handle life itself. I'm surprised I made it to 40yrs old. I don't see a future and I don't want to look at my past. I don't know what to do.