I just want someone to take out my fear, regret, bitterness, hopes, ambition, desperation, anxiety, everything that is giving me so much pain. I can't get rid of these things by thinking them away. I would be infinitely happier as a drooling idiot, because then I wouldn't care about whether I was drooling or an idiot, or anything else for that matter. LOL @ calling humans higher animals.. this intelligence is mostly trouble and not worth any of the good parts. I badly need help and have no idea what to do. I'm not strong enough to do anything on my own, I'm a fucking 12 year-old in an adult's body. I've reached a point in my life where I don't think anything is really worth doing anymore.