Hi, I have been severely depressed for several months now. I have been thinking of suicide for over a month now. The thoughts are getting worse and the desire a lot stronger. I have a nearly 4 year old son...that is the only reason that I am still here. I have no family support. The mental health "professionals" that I was seeing don't care anymore. I went to an appointment over a week ago where my therapist sat there telling me that feeling this way was my fault. I am Bipolar with Borderline Personality Disorder. She told me that people with these disorders function all of the time. Why was I having such a problem. My case manager was supposed to join us in this particular meeting. Before she could, I told my therapist that I needed to go to the bathroom and left. I don't think that I am hearing voices per say...it is just like there is an ongoing argument in my head. The louder thought told me to leave...so I did. I sent both of them a text trying to explain and said that I was sorry...I haven't heard from either of them in over a week. My prescriber (a Nurse Practitioner) is at a loss of what to do with me as far as medicine is concerned..so in essence, she has given up on me as well. I stopped taking my medicine after that last appointment. It wasn't working any way. All that I do is cry or yell at my son. Which isn't fair to him. I don't know what to do...someone please help me.