Hurting so much but its not pain from a cut. I've done my time, now please I'm in so much pain, physical, mental, emotional I need out. why can't i just die in my sleep tonight, just take me please. They say, you do the crime you do the time. They say, it’s not my crime So why am I doing the time? I’m told, its them who done the crime Its them who are the criminals It’s them who are the offenders But it’s me whose being punished. I don’t understand... I’m doing the time I’m being punished so I must be the criminal. I’m locked in a world of silence The prison walls surround me I’m nothing, I can't escape, can't be free no one can see no one can hear the fears that are locked inside me the memories, the thoughts all trapped in my mind The prison walls are built so high This place is worse than a maze Lost, and fading away Each day, each minute, each second A bit more of me disappears But no one sees No one hears, As I’m locked in a place Where nobody cares I’m losing the fight Unable to find a way out The prison walls too high for me to climb, I’m blindfolded in a maze, Needing help, needing guidance But there is nobody around, Nobody will come near As I sit and rot away I don’t know who I am For I was lost a long time ago I don’t know where I am As I lost my way a long time ago I don’t understand why me Or why anyone... I don’t understand Why the officers won’t help me I have been trying for so long to get help The drugs came after, Not before... The drugs gave warmth, Warmth I’ve never felt from love Or from care. The drugs, where my only friend Doesn’t judge me Doesn’t look at me in disgust Drugs provided comfort When I needed someone there Drugs never walked away When times got difficult Drugs calmed me down When my moods where higher than a kite Drugs I thought were my friends Now realise there were like everyone else They have taken everything from me My friends, my money, my life. Drugs are the same as them... Tricked me to thinking it was love, That I was “special” that I was the only one, the pain that they caused, I believed was the price you pay For the love, that I thought they showed me Now....... I’ve lost everything I’ve lost more of me I’ve lost my sense of being I’ve lost my sense of wanting I’ve lost my mind I’ve lost the fight I’ve lost the battle Each day I breathe, Is punishment to me Now please just let me be.. Let me go, let me be free Let me die please. I’m ready...this time next week I will be gone.... I needed a sign That something would change Would give me hope Nothing came, So alone I died.