I have a problem that is causing me anxiety and making me just wanna rip my hair out. I'm in a...relationship...with this girl. I say it like that because I really don't see her doing anything to show me she likes me, though she will say it randomly- at very odd times. It's more "Oh I have a hot girlfriend" to people who try to hit on her. We're long distance so that is probably some of it. Anyways it's been almost 2 years. But that's not the problem. In a couple of months I'm going on a trip with my best friend, I mean we are the ones that keep each other going. She is a wonderful friend and she has helped me stay alive many many times. But it's gonna be me, my friend, my girlfriend and one of her friends. I know this is only gonna end in disaster since no one has ever met anyone else, but it's mainly for the drive and the hotel room that 4-5 people are going to be cramped in. My problem is...my friend doesn't know we're dating. Not because I'm tryin to hide that I got a girlfriend. But she said something that ended up hurting my friend's feelings before we started dating. Since then I've kinda kept the two distant. But soon we're all going to be on the same trip together. What do I do? I keep thinking- to keep the peace I should ask for a break in the relationship. Not break up but just a break...This also will help my mental status a little since this relationship seems to take a toll on my mental status and just how many times I've thought of ending it all. But but what do I do. Should I ask for the break, and then re-evaulate it all? Or should I hold my breath and hope that there aren't too many fireworks during this trip? I've also thought of asking my gf to not announce it and just kinda keep it low key, without telling her why. I hate this and I just needa know what to do. I've tried to not ask all of you because this is my mess that I created. But it just has caused me to loose sleep and even wonder if I should cancel the trip, though that ends up hurting so many people. I mean I KNOW the answer is right there in front of me, and is something easy. I can always tell my friend, but how do I word it without making her feel insificant? I've thought of telling her but explaining to her that- for her ears only- I really never saw this lasting, and I still don't but I'm waiting to see what happens. Would that be ok? I mean it's the truth. I don't see this relationship working out unless there are big time changes, and there isn't. But...is that ok to tell my friend? I know she'd keep a secret. I know her to be that good. But...I don't know. See...this is why I keep loosing sleep, my mind doesn't stop. And it plays out so many ways this can go and it just makes my anxiety increase! Please any help would be loved. I fail at relationships...as you can see!