Im freaking out. god please help me...someone now... I want to cut. I need to cut. I want the addiction back. I dont care how long its been, i dont care how much people say its good i dont anymore. No one really cares or understands how HARD its been to not cut for almost 3 years. I cant stop thinking about it. god. its coming back to haunt me. I went without thinking about it for a while... but now its back. its pulling me into its charms. and I dont want to stop it. I dont. I want to feel the thin metal sliding across my skin, I want to drag it deep and wash the blood poor out. I want to worry about people finding out. I want to worry about bandaging and taking care of it. My life feels pointless now, I feel like I need it, I need something to help me. my boyfriend isnt helping much, hes trying, he really is. but hes saying he will break up with me if I do. And that doesnt exactly help. that just makes me want to do it more. I dont know why. I need to feel it...I need to feel it...I need to feel it... God help me. Just for tonight, someone, anyone help me get through this. I dont know if I can make it this time. And worst of all, I feel as if I have no reason to feel this way, I'm one cut away from ruining my life. HELP!