Lately when I go to school it is hard for me to focus because I am trying to hard to look and act happy. I don't want to be that girl that brings everybody down. With my horrible mood but I know that hiding my depression is slowly killing me. How do you let those around you know that you are having a hard time finding the courage to live at the moment and ask them for their help or just ask them to listen? I have never been a person who talks about their feelings but lately I really want to let it out and I need to let it out otherwise I think that my suicidal thoughts will get the better of me. Help me please I have no idea where to begin.