I need Help. I am getting more suicidal. I sold my gun so I dont have a gun. I don't think I have the courage to cut my wrists. Have thought about cutting. Maybe then I could get some help. :sad: I have to do something. If I had my gun............ What scares me is it only takes that one moment and it is all over. I keep thinking about hurting myself, like stabbing my hand or something. What's going on? Why does it have to be like this............ Why do I have to suffer all the fucking time? I am a good person. I dont get it :sad: All I can think is that God wants me dead, but that is prolly just a crazy thought, but it feels like it is not.