i'm sixteen and have been cutting since i was thirteen. i've been addicted to it for a long time, but lately, i'm going in a serious downward spiral. on sunday night i cut fifteen times, yesterday eight, and then so far today i've done it fifteen times. cutting and suicide are on my mind ALL THE TIME. i cant stop doing it, and im not sure if i want to. i've just changed counsellors, but for a couple months now, i've found talking about my problems doesnt help at all. i'm on Zoloft, but thats just making me feel numb and even more empty. my boyfriend knows i do it. he really wants me to stop and he seems to think i can just snap out of it. my mum knows, and she lets me coz she thinks theres no way she can stop me. my counsellor knows, and she checks my arms every time i see her. even when there's fresh cuts, she gives me no advice as to what to do. its like everyone is brushing it away. i'm really really addicted to cutting. i rely on it. i cant live without it. help me.