I'm 24 years old, and the last year has been the worst year of my life. I've never imagined I could ever come to be in the position I'm in now, but I feel hopeless and can't remember what it's like to be happy. I should have graduated college a year ago, but I screwed it up, and just never got myself back on track, and had a long stretch of drug abuse afterwards where I almost destroyed myself. Now that I'm clean, I'm still completely miserable because I have literally nothing in my life except my family. I've accomplished nothing and I look at everyone else I know my age who are doing shit with their lives. A year ago I wasn't like this, I was happy and a positive thinker and I just don't know what the fuck happened to start this ridiculous downward spiral, leading me to this pathetic state I am in right now posting on a suicide forum by myself to people I don't know. I just don't know what else to do literally, I feel so crushingly alone because I've never been one to tell people about my problems. I want to kill myself more than ever because I feel like I've just failed so many times that I don't deserve to be here anymore.