The problem with hospitals is you are already miserable, suicidal, and going nuts so they lock you up and treat you like a criminal instead of a patient. Then 2 or 3 days later you tell them what they want to hear and they let you out. I was in 2 in one week. Works great.
It's really not all that bad. I guess it really depends on where you go.
I ended up in average ones, not the worst, but certainly not the best. Most of the doctors seemed to care and genuinely wanted to help me. You have to work with them and be honest if you want anything to change, or you can lie, be out in a few days....only to come back and waste more time.
It's not rainbows and gumdrops in these places, for sure. It's boring...there's just TV (which you share with loads of other people), puzzles with missing pieces, coloring pages and crayons, and old magazines. Most have a few groups throughout the day. Some places even allow you to go outside - in a confined area, of course.
So you bring a few books and grit your teeth and bear it for the sake of being better in the long run. In every place I've been to, you see the doctor every day, so every day they are working on meds with you.
The fact is, either you can take advantage of it, or you can waste your time.
The root of the problem is not something I want posted on a forum. Can we say I have lost everything and everyone I ever had.
Sounds a tad on the dramatic side to me. It's easy to take things for granted. Think about what you have to be thankful for. You have a roof over your head, I assume food to eat, a computer with internet access. That's more than 2/3rds of the world right there. I know that may not be a huge comfort, but sometimes we need to be reminded of what we do have instead of focusing on what we don't have.