I wasn't really raised to have any discipline. so when i'm sufferieng this deep depression and have suicidal thoughts. i've been suffering for depression for all my life mostly. its going to the point where its really severe and i've had it. I am having NO MOTIVATION to do anything... even though I know it will help me i just have none and think whats the use. so i don't end up doing much which leads me to feeling even more depressed. I feel like its a BIG CHORE just to wash my teeth in the morning. on my "normal" months when i am not depressed the only thing i can compare this feeling of choreness is like when you are running a mile. A NON depressed person who never suffered this will not understand what i'm talking about here. i've been to many therapists and they all have been unhelpful and told me i'm lazy. tell me how is that going to HELP ME? i have not found any cure for this. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO? will medication be my only hope? i've been on meds but it doesn't work for long and i have to stop or try another and most have side effects i can't handle (like too much sleepness) SIGH. is there any way to go around this? i can't imagine doing harder tasks. i just feel like going to brush my teeth in the morning is soooo hard. i have to push myself but i barly get anything done. please help!