i don’t wanna die but it’s like i just want to be alone with the people i love forever ya know. away from everyone else. so much shit has happened to me, it just feels like a never ending cycle of abuse. mentally, sexually, psychically. i cant trust men, or anyone for that matter. i don’t know what to do w myself anymore. the one person i have left is my mom, and my two best friends but i feel that they’ll be fine without me. i just feel that when my mom is gone i won’t have to feel guilty about leaving anymore. but yea idk where i’m going w this. i just kinda want a sign or reasons to stay. not that stuff like “most attempts don’t work”, more like “coffee when u wake up” or “the sunset”. idk if anyone knows what i mean lol. i feel dumb for doing this but if anyone read this thank you .