I need people to talk to. I don't think I'm cut out to live

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Kiskay, Apr 28, 2016.

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  1. Kiskay

    Kiskay New Member

    I'm only a 17 year old high schooler who turns 18 in 2 weeks. I'm not even in the real world yet and I can't take it. I have few friends and the ones I do are considered loosers at school along with me. We get made fun of for being "hipsters" and even the nerdy kids make fun of us. I have recently become sick and I start throwing up from stress, so this happens every 2-3 days. I keep having to leave work and my boss is mad. My mother thinks I'm faking it despite being prescribed medication for this. I keep having suicidal thoughts because of the bullying, sickness, lack of time to rest and I need people to talk to. My life probably isn't even as bad as some people that consider suicide and it just makes me feel even more useless. I just don't think I'm cut-out to live in this world.
  2. Brian777

    Brian777 Safety and Support SF Artist SF Supporter

    Hi there Kiskay, being your age can be a confusing time, you're starting to get into adulthood and things are a little different. Those people ( the cool ones :) they'll be out of your life in a short time. You'll be in College and dealing with a whole new bunch of people. It's been a long time since I was that age, but it sounds much the same, just the names for it have been changed. I was a geeky kid, so I know how it feels. Hang in there, it does get better.
  3. ThePhantomLady

    ThePhantomLady Safety and Support SF Supporter

    Hi and welcome to the forum @Kiskay

    I'm sorry to hear how you feel. High school is a very stressful time, and things that may not seem important when you get older, can seem so very important. It's not easy not being one of the popular ones.
    Like Brian said, soon all of these idiots will be out of your life. But for now it is having an effect on your life.

    Have you talked to a counselor about your problems? Throwing up due to stress and suicidal thoughts are very serious and should not be taken likely. I'm happy to hear you are being treated for the throwing up though (how are you being treated btw? anti acid pills? Or?)

    Please don't give up on yourself, and get the help you deserve. You are important!
  4. HPfan

    HPfan New Member

    Hello Kiskay, I'm 20 and finished school 2 years ago so I think I understand how you're feeling a bit. I definitely understand feeling suicidal but knowing that other people have it way worse so not wanting to say anything. I'm new here but already I've had great support from total strangers and even though there are people that have it worse, they still listen and try to help. I have to say, I was lucky in school and wasn't ever bullied by pupils but there was this one teacher that hated me and threatened to break my wrists and I just felt so powerless and worthless. Maybe that's a bit like how you feel? I'm not sure, unfortunately I'm not a mind read (though that would be so cool). In regards to not being 'cut-out to live in this world', school and life after it are like totally separate worlds so if you can hang on until school is over it should get better. It's scary at first when you finish school and don't know what you're going to do but honestly you'll find something and hopefully you love it. I hope this has helped you at least a little bit, as I said I'm new here but other people have already been kind to me and if this doesn't help there are lots more people willing to listen and try to help :)
  5. Striking

    Striking Well-Known Member

    The real world begins the moment you are born.

    Stop comparing. You feel as you feel. That is all the validity you need.

    Labels are dangerous. They prevent you from seeing different perspectives. Even you are using negative labeling of "nerdy". Drop them and understand you are you. What someone's beliefs or thoughts about you are irrelevant.

    You have choices. You can choose to listen to other people and suffer for it or you can just say, preferably outloud to those people, "you are an asshole". Then put em out of your mind.

    Choose to be kinder to yourself
  6. Striking

    Striking Well-Known Member

    Call a crisis line, it doesn't matter if you are "serious" or not with suicidal ideation. It requires attention from you. Then see about a therapist. If Mom isn't listening go to the school counselor or principal.

  7. I am the worst person to reply. But I feel the same way as u do. It seems like there is no one in the world truly there not one day goes by I don't think about it.
    The part that makes me sad is that I wish some one would come and save me. In return I don't know why I am replying to your post but I hope u don't do this.
    Not one day goes by I don't think about finding a person who wants to quit and take them away to safety. I wish some one would come take me away.
    Perhaps my writing can inspire u.

    I dream of escaping to a place that will makes me happy.
    experience a new beginning only to rune one more place that I dreamed to be great.

    Sucks when it doesn't work out as planned.
    Who knows what the plan was to beguine with.
  8. marie1216

    marie1216 New Member

    Hi there. When you graduate from HS you will look back at this and say....I cant believe I let those idiots get to me the way they did. Your a unique individual and although others may view you differently it shouldnt matter. We all cant be the same.
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