Hey im new. ive finally come to get some advice. ive never told any1 about this but i really gotta get it out, even if somehow my friends or brothers read this. heres my story.. im 14 and i still wet the bed. im not a "nerd" or geek or anything i guess u could label me as anything. im not really popular nor am i extremely unpopular.. i have friends but sometimes i dont know if half of them i can still call friends. my house is very active, my friends never ring the door bell anymore. my twin brother is telling me im useless and that if i died noone would miss me, i beleive it most of the time. my friends are constintly coming in and out of my room to play on my computer or bug me. its soo hard to make it look like im not a "bed wetter" at age fourteen. i really wish i could stop but i really dont know how. i cant go to sleepovers without freaking out, camps.. now i just skip them, sports? i never really liked em anyway but still. in 7th grade i went through hell in gym cuz i "smelled" i was always nevous and scared every day. in 8th grade i couldnt take it anymore so i asked my mom all the time for slips to skip gym. i thought about just hiding in the bathroom, i started skipping school once a week, then twice. my mom sooner or later asked why i hated gym. i was to embarrassed to tell her. so i just kept silent. after alot of hell my mom got fed up. she said if i didnt go to school she would call in sick for me. from then on i didnt want to go to school at all. the cops said if i didnt start going to school id go to juvi. me and my dad would fight sometimes but never way to serious. then one day it wasnt my dad but my mom, she got really mad and took away my computer grounded me told me i had to go to school or else she was gonna get the cops to take me there. i ran away from home and went to the forest ran for awhile till i was further then id ever been before. it was like a dry wasteland and seemed like there wasnt a house anywhere nearby. i was gonna sleep tehre but i was still wearing my contacts. i was starving and it was a rule if you go into the forest near my house u always go with some1 else. anyway, my moms really forgiving but i still didnt trust her anymore after the fight so i snuck home to get some food and my glasses and contact case. i thought my mom had gone out, turns out she hadnt. she told me she wasnt mad at me anymore and not to run off again. said if i didnt want to go to that school anymore i didnt have too. i left that school and started getting tutored with my college money. it was really expensive and my parents didnt want me to waste all my college money so when i was asked this summer if im going to high school i said yes. my parents are happy, but im not. i know its gonna happen again and i know people are gonna make fun of my for leaving in 8th and ask "why? why? why?" i really dont wanna go through with it. i have this tendency to under preasure say my real opion at the last second. resently ive lost interest in girls so i switched to hentai and gay porn. my bro and friends probibly think im gay now.. i really dont know, i still like girls but i cant say im 100% sure im straight. and now ive lost interest in guys. its so hard to ... "pleasure?" myself anymore. my bro thinks im gay and my friends probibly do too. i dont really like guys anymore, still a bit for girls but ionno.. hell starts in less then a month and im pretty scared. my parents got me to go to a sleep study because of my insane sleeping schedule and the bed wetting. my oridontist said that i have a slide in my jaw that usually people with sleep apnia have. *dont get enough air when asleep* and that i may need surgery to get rid of whatever may be blocking my airway when im sleeping. instead of loosing my braces i get 5 more weeks of them and painful springs.. everytime i goto bed in scared. i play video games all the time and watch movies to get away from all the hell. ive also been loosing weight which is a bad thing sence im already really skinny. on a show i was watching i saw a girl that was a cutter. it seems like cutting might be another get away.. for when that hell starts. although i could be home schooled on my computer.. i dont wanna see my mom cry again from my stupid fears. i cut myself this morning, not enough to make it bleed but it broke the skin. i guess u could call it practicing. can any1 help me?