Hey everyone, this is my first post here (I'm sorry if it isn't very coherent, there's just a lot of thoughts in my head). I'm 16 years old and suffering from a lot of depression... due to a lot of things. When I was growing up, my parents constantly argued with one another (and still do to this day), and I think it was one of the contributing factors to who I am today. Currently, I have almost no real friends... I only have one good friend, my best friend. I'm very shy and not social at all. I prefer to be alone but at the same time I want someone to talk to. I can't seem to talk to my family members or friend(s) because of my awkwardness. I'm also really, really skinny for my age (a little below 110 lbs. last time I checked), which is another thing I'm ashamed about. However, I'm really, really intelligent, and I've been making high honors ever since middle school. At the same time, however, I'm having suicidal thoughts. I keep thinking: "well, I've always had a crappy life, so why not end it now? I have almost no friends, I can't talk to anyone or seem to get help, I can't get any attention, so what's the point?" I'm also really stressed out about some other minor things, like getting a job soon, going to college, etc. I have some plans but I'm always worried about what happen to my future. I hate ignorance and I hate it when I can't seem to do some simple jobs that only take common sense... I feel like a dumbass when I can't do simple things... but on the opposite side of the spectrum, I'm getting straight A's on papers, quizzes, and projects. I can control myself and know when enough is enough, so I don't think I'll ever come to the point where I may kill myself, but I'm so tired of feeling lonely and depressed. I guess this post was kind of a vent and a search for any advice you guys might have. I'd like to know how to build my self-confidence, become more social, gain weight, and maybe be happy again. I think joining this forum was a good idea for myself, since it seems like a lot of the people here are helpful and share the same problems. Well, thanks, and I'll see you guys around.