Ive been in 2 big relationships and never not being about 14. My first relationship lasted 5 years amd ,y 2nd 1 and a half. My 2nd is not fully over but i am unable to see her and i think with everything going on we will split. she is about to have my child in the next 6 weeks and i am finding that very hard to deal with as I may not be able to be there. I am a family man and love family. Sine the whole situation has started with me i have been left on my own. I cant contact my partner and I have been trying to commit suicide the last 2 days but cant bring myself too. If i knew people would not hurt when i did it i would do it now. But i know tehy will. All i know is i need someone to love. I need someone by my side and without it i cant be strong. I know none of you can help but I feel like screaming all the time because I need someone.... i need my partner now but cant have her.... I dont wish to go through what has happened to me as I personally think it is sick and find it hard to talk about.